So first, we have Alex,, who appeared in the first book. He taught Lena how to love, and in return, she loved him back. Alex was this caring, adventurous guy. He took Lena to his little trailer and they stared up at the stars. Before that, when Lena was trying to get Hana away from the illegal party, Alex healed her leg, which was injured by a dog. He saved her more times than I can count.
But his most memorable moment is when he sacrifices himself so Lena can escape. He knows that Lena will be cured if she stays, and she won't love him anymore. So, to stop this from happening, he escapes with her. The plan was going okay until the 'police' were following them, and Alex knew that only one of them could escape. He let Lena believe that he was coming, and he told her to keep running, and don't look back.
And once she gets over the fence, she looks back.
There's Alex, standing behind the fence, swarmed by officials. There's the boy, the one who showed her how to love, standing there in a death trap. But, no matter how much she wants to stay with him, she continues on to the Wilds.
ANNDDDD THEN...... enter Julian, the son of a huge anti-love guy. Both he and Lena are 'kidnapped' and are stuck in a room for days on end. You tell me: one girl+one boy+small room+long periods of time= ? IT EQUALS FEELINGS.
This relationship is so different from Lena and Alex's. Julian's way more awkward and not as hands-on as Alex. He's the kind of guy who will just sit back and watch everything, slowly studying the world around him. At first, he was like 'ew, girl, get away from me. I don't want to catch the deliria.'
WELL JULIAN, APPARENTLY YOU CHANGED YOUR MIND.
And you know as well as I do, Lena was going to fall in love with him sooner or later. There's this one scene that made me jump up and down and cry at the same time.
"What does it feel like?"
I know what he is talking about, but I still ask, "What does what feel like?"
"The deliria." He pauses. Then I hear him slide slowly out of bed. He is kneeling in the space between our bunks. I cannot move or breath. If I turn my head, our lips will be six inches apart. Less. "What does it feel like to be infected?"
"I--I can't describe it." I force the words out. Can't breath, can't breath, can't breath. His skin smells like smoke from a wood fire, like soap, like heaven. I imagine tasting his skin; I imagine biting his lips.
"I want to know." His words are a whisper, barely audible. "I want to know with you
(pg. 300, Pandemonium)
JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL.
This whole time I was thinking 'he's going to kiss her, he's going to kiss her." AND THEN HE FUCKING DOES. One part of me was cheering like an idiot, while the other part was drowning in its own tears.
You can't blame me for being upset. I spent a whole book falling in love with Alex, and now, I spent a whole book falling in love with Julian. Honestly, my emotions are as mixed up as Lena's.
THE CHOICE
1) Alex. This was Lena's first love. Without him, nothing in Pandemonium would've happened. Lena would've never learned about love, she would've never question the society. This is the boy who risked their lives just to meet Lena everyday, to show her a piece of the Wilds, who told her stories about escaping the world they lived in so they could be together. He's adventurous, caring, daring and most importantly, Lena's first love.
2) Julian. After Alex died, Lena met Julian. As you can tell by the first book and the way Lena acted in Pandemonium, she still had feelings for Alex, even though she thought he was dead. Lena and Julian were stuck together, and they bonded. They didn't have to talk, or tell stories about their past, but they did. Lena trust Julian, and slowly, he trusted her. He's almost the polar opposite of Alex: quiet, shy, and studies the world around him.
Both these boys have special spots in Lena's heart. I personally love them both and could never choose between them, but for me, I think Lena loves Alex more. I LOVE THEM BOTH, but I think Lena feels more towards Alex than Julian.
For one, whenever she was with Julian, she was always comparing him to Alex. She'd always see Alex's face, and think about what Alex would've done if he was in Julian's position.But, towards the end, I think she starts to see Julian as his own person.
Another thing-- when Alex was stuck in Portland, Lena did not know for sure that he was dead. It was likely that he was dead, but Lena didn't know for sure. Even with a slight chance that Alex was still alive, Lena didn't event think to go and save him.
But when Julian was going to get executed, and Lena didn't know if she was going to get there in time, she still went to save him. She didn't think of the consequences, all the she could think about was saving Julian. Lena didn't even think for a second to go back and save Alex. She always thought that he would find his way to her, not the other way around. That was not an option for Julian, she just couldn't go on without him after everything that happened.
So, it's you decision. Julian, or Alex? I personally love both boys, but I think I gravitate more towards Alex. But, he has spent a long time away from Lena and my, my, have things certainly changed. I guess we'll just have to see how everything ends up in the last installment of the Delirium Trilogy, Requiem, out March 5, 2013.
Comment below and tell me who you think Lena will choose, or if you think she'll pick anyone at all!
-A
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